This session was intense and disorienting—rotating visuals and a “weird face,” followed by a deep collapse into grief and shame about never being enough, never standing up for myself, and feeling “built wrong” at my core. Alongside the fear of exposure and being a burden (at work and with family), the clearest truth was that my body has real needs and I’ve learned to hide them to stay safe. Even in the overwhelm, support and permission came through: Javi’s steady presence, “I am allowed to exist,” “I am weird and that’s okay,” and a growing pull toward asking for help and advocating for myself.
IM Dose: 35mg | Listened to: Space sounds
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