Field notes from
a ketamine journey

This space is dedicated to sharing my personal experiences with therapeutic ketamine (IM). Before starting my own journey, I had a lot of anxiety around the process and found great comfort in reading about others’ experiences. Every journey is unique, and I hope mine can provide you with some knowledge, comfort or a feeling that you’re not alone in your experience. 

Each session includes any artwork I've drawn based on the experience, alongside a brief note on how the session unfolded.

About me

I found my way to therapeutic ketamine after years of carrying way more than I realized. Growing up, I learned that it felt unsafe to express most emotions, and that shaped me into a lifelong people-pleaser who often felt responsible for anything that happened around me.

Later, I experienced profound grief with the loss of my brother to suicide and the resulting ongoing family crisis. Instead of processing it, I stuffed everything down and kept moving forward out of fear of falling behind in life. Eventually, that unprocessed stress collided with severe burnout and depression. After traditional antidepressants made me feel worse, ketamine felt like a hopeful alternative.

It's a work in progress, but so far, it has created space for things I had ignored for most of my life: healing, processing, and self-compassion.