This session moved through a series of “rooms” and in-between spaces—red, blue-green, black, and a light-blue flower room—where I couldn’t control what I saw and had to practice sitting with fear until it passed. The core themes were existential bigness (“what am I?”), bracing and control (worrying I was doing it wrong, vision/sound anxieties), and a longing for grounding and support, especially from my husband and my parts. By the end, it felt like my brain was reorganizing and showing me something about boundaries and self-truth: that the darkness/heaviness might be part of me too, and it can be okay to witness it without fixing it.
IM Dose: 35mg | Listened to: Space sounds
Intention: Show me what I'm afraid of